2006 has been a very bitter sweet year. Sadly we have had some major losses, some tramatic events, and some joyous occasions...all of them part of the circle of life. I remember being young and it seeming to take forever to go through 1 year of time. And now I look back and say wasn't it yesterday we where out in Denver for Christmas. Wasn't it yesterday when Steve and Erin where getting married. Wasn't it yesterday when one of my favorite pictures was taken. It is a picture of all 5 of my nephews Wes, Jimmy, Max, Sean, and Cole. Wasn't it yesterday that Jimmy was born. Wasn't it yesterday Mom moved to Denver. Wasn't it yesterday that the fire bomb car from hell caught fire ;-). Wasn't it yesterday I was a permenant temp. Well you get the point that life goes by to fast.
One word about my blog before I continue. What I write here is not to offend anyone. If I offended anyone I apologize. I have been accused of brutal honesty. So what I write here is honest...which can offend. So again...if you are offended then I am sorry but this is me....good, bad, and ugly. And if you haven't been mentioned yet keep reading and I am sure you will be. But my memories or what strikes me at the time are not about being even or fair...they are what strikes me at the moment. So please know that nothing I say is meant to hurt or offend....and if it does then please decide not to read it...because the last thing I ever want to do is hurt people.
I am not going to go through all the things that happened this year as some if it will make us sad. I will say that with all that has happened I feel very blessed. I will however list the good things that have happened ;-). Mom is going like gang busters. I have Lymes Disease!!! Which if you have just stumbled on this page is a fabulous thing because I can finally do something about feeling like crap!!! Jimmy turned 16!! Wes got accepted to the college he wanted. Mason got accepted to the college he wanted. Mackenzie graduated from her Physican Assistants school and is a Certified P.A. Linda paid off her debt. I paid off my debt. I quit smoking! My car turned 10 years old and 100,000 miles!!! My car karma debt I believe I is corrected. This list was not inclusive of all events that have taken place...just some.
I am going to the doctor tomorrow. I am glad about that. I need to get back on the plan...I gained 10 pounds. It has been a good year and I would say that Miracles happen. I got 2 this year and I am so greatful for those.
I hope 2007 brings everyone who reads this blog, those who know people who read this blog, and everyone in the world love, joy, peace, good health, prosperity, and laughter. And that all the miracles you hope for come to you. And if they don't remember that something better is coming to you.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
12/27--Happy Birthday Stever
Happy Birthday Stever!!! Today he is 49. I am really proud of my brother. He has worked very hard to be something entirely different from my father. He is a good father, a good husband, a good son and a wonderful brother!! He has struggled with his own demons and I am very proud of how hard he has worked to over come them.
We had a nice day with Mom today. A bit emotional but good. Mom really like the place in the Kentlands. I would hope she is moved out here by June. I would love it to be March but we will take what we can get. I think it will be lots of fun once she gets here. And maybe with good luck I will feel better by then ;-). I know it will. I started before I stopped the mino. I know I have the capacity to heal myself but somehow I have been unable to succeed by myself. I am really hoping modern medicine can help me this time ;-).
Well I am tried and it's late so I will make this short. I did start back the mino tonight. So either since I have been off it for a while I might not get any effects till about 4 days or I will see them on Saturday. Either way I am very excited about talking with the doctor. Cause I tasted feeling good and I want more if it!!!
Take Care....Be Safe...Treat Others as You Would Like To Be Treated
We had a nice day with Mom today. A bit emotional but good. Mom really like the place in the Kentlands. I would hope she is moved out here by June. I would love it to be March but we will take what we can get. I think it will be lots of fun once she gets here. And maybe with good luck I will feel better by then ;-). I know it will. I started before I stopped the mino. I know I have the capacity to heal myself but somehow I have been unable to succeed by myself. I am really hoping modern medicine can help me this time ;-).
Well I am tried and it's late so I will make this short. I did start back the mino tonight. So either since I have been off it for a while I might not get any effects till about 4 days or I will see them on Saturday. Either way I am very excited about talking with the doctor. Cause I tasted feeling good and I want more if it!!!
Take Care....Be Safe...Treat Others as You Would Like To Be Treated
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
12/26--Happy Birthday Ms. Ma'am
Miss Ma'am is now a Ms. Ma'am who is grown up ;-). And today she turns 20 OMG. Seems like yesterday she was in 2nd grade ;-0. It was quite a few years ago that we where in NYC for her birthday. What a fun trip that was. I would like to that with all my girls sometime ;-). Well Happy 20th!!! I am very proud of you. You are a cool chick, women, and girl and I love you 2 pieces mieces beat you...except it is your birthday so you win!!!
I feel like crap today...don't tell Cole. I lied to him because I don't want him to worry. I love those boys and don't want them to think of me as poor sad aunt Sally. I want to be fun aunt Sally who they are proud of and want to spend time with. When all is said and done I want them to remember me with great affection and fondness. That when they are 40 they still play the lu2pmbu game and let me win occasionally. Maybe they will pretend like they don't have caller id ;).
That they will be that way with their children, or their rent-a-kids, or whomever it is they choose to work to spend time with. I want them all to be good to each other and to themselves. To remember that taking care of yourself doesn't mean selfish...it is the only way you can take care of someone else. To remember that judging books by their covers means you miss out on a lot of great and wonderful people and moments. Most importantly I want them to trust their gut instinct and do what they know to be true for themselves as long as they don't hurt themselves or other people.
On to my symptoms, etc. I cannot drink milk anymore it makes me feel like big crap. I cannot eat white flour. And very limited on whole wheat. I cannot drink, I cannot eat sugar. All of it makes me feel like big crap. One more week before I go back to Dr. and then I can get a better handle on my pain management so I don't feel so crappy. Hey I can deal with every other day feeling like crap. It is the every day migraine and pain I cannot deal with. But hey...now I know why I don't like milk ;-). Maybe when the lyme bastards are dead I will be able to enjoy it then. Guess it is back to coconut milk for me instead and my keifer.
Well I have work today if I want to take the day off tomorrow. One day my life will be more then work and feeling like crap ;-). I look forward to it...till then I will start doing the work needed from me to get better. Most people look at their life as the best chapters are behind them. I look at my life as the best chapter is yet to come. And that is an outlook I consider a blessing and always will.
Take Care...be safe...LU2PMBU
I feel like crap today...don't tell Cole. I lied to him because I don't want him to worry. I love those boys and don't want them to think of me as poor sad aunt Sally. I want to be fun aunt Sally who they are proud of and want to spend time with. When all is said and done I want them to remember me with great affection and fondness. That when they are 40 they still play the lu2pmbu game and let me win occasionally. Maybe they will pretend like they don't have caller id ;).
That they will be that way with their children, or their rent-a-kids, or whomever it is they choose to work to spend time with. I want them all to be good to each other and to themselves. To remember that taking care of yourself doesn't mean selfish...it is the only way you can take care of someone else. To remember that judging books by their covers means you miss out on a lot of great and wonderful people and moments. Most importantly I want them to trust their gut instinct and do what they know to be true for themselves as long as they don't hurt themselves or other people.
On to my symptoms, etc. I cannot drink milk anymore it makes me feel like big crap. I cannot eat white flour. And very limited on whole wheat. I cannot drink, I cannot eat sugar. All of it makes me feel like big crap. One more week before I go back to Dr. and then I can get a better handle on my pain management so I don't feel so crappy. Hey I can deal with every other day feeling like crap. It is the every day migraine and pain I cannot deal with. But hey...now I know why I don't like milk ;-). Maybe when the lyme bastards are dead I will be able to enjoy it then. Guess it is back to coconut milk for me instead and my keifer.
Well I have work today if I want to take the day off tomorrow. One day my life will be more then work and feeling like crap ;-). I look forward to it...till then I will start doing the work needed from me to get better. Most people look at their life as the best chapters are behind them. I look at my life as the best chapter is yet to come. And that is an outlook I consider a blessing and always will.
Take Care...be safe...LU2PMBU
Monday, December 25, 2006
12/25/06--Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas to all who stop by today. It has been a very nice Christmas. I am so blessed to be so well loved. I am the velveteen Sally ;-). If you are unfamiliar with the story please pick up a copy of "The Velveteen Rabbit". Another favorite is The Little Prince. I love my family and friends. If people walk away from me if the only thing they know is that I am blessed. I make no bones about it. I work hard at it and have for many lifetimes. And in this one I think I am beginning to get it right. I certainly hope so anyway ;-). I hope all of you reading this have had a nice day, week and Holiday.
I have to admit to being glad the holidays are over. While it was wonderful I have over indulged in everything. And I am paying the price. I feel like crap and am totally off kilter with my stuff. I even skipped Christmas dinner. I wasn't even able to eat until 8:00 and am missing a fabulous dinner and red velvet cake. But it is not fun to go and sit and watch people eat and have your stomach hurting. So I bailed. This is part of my journey and the road I have to take. It is a learning process luckily it is not like it is not a journey that am just starting...i feel like I am at the end of the journey. That chapter before I get to explore all the things I am interested in but have no energy to do. Like pottery which I dearly loved...working on my house...and even...maybe dating ;-). But I need to finish this chapter first or at least get it started. I imagine in however, long I will be feeling better and better on the good days.
The one thing I know for certain is that I am blessed. Blessed to know why I feel like I do. Blessed that I have a window well cover. Blessed to have found a handy man. Blessed to have bad pets curling up with me. Blessed to have a job with people I love and want to stay working with. Most importantly I am blessed with the people in my life....from the youngest to the oldest they all make my heart sing and for that I am forever blessed ;-).
Well I have faded hard and need to go lie down and get something for my pain. But I learned another thing. I cannot drink lots of milk due to the Vitamin D. It makes me feel worse. WAAAAAA. I love Raw Milk!!! WAAAAAAA...ok...whinning over. I will be happy I can eat chocolate ;-).
Take care...be safe...LU2PMBU
I have to admit to being glad the holidays are over. While it was wonderful I have over indulged in everything. And I am paying the price. I feel like crap and am totally off kilter with my stuff. I even skipped Christmas dinner. I wasn't even able to eat until 8:00 and am missing a fabulous dinner and red velvet cake. But it is not fun to go and sit and watch people eat and have your stomach hurting. So I bailed. This is part of my journey and the road I have to take. It is a learning process luckily it is not like it is not a journey that am just starting...i feel like I am at the end of the journey. That chapter before I get to explore all the things I am interested in but have no energy to do. Like pottery which I dearly loved...working on my house...and even...maybe dating ;-). But I need to finish this chapter first or at least get it started. I imagine in however, long I will be feeling better and better on the good days.
The one thing I know for certain is that I am blessed. Blessed to know why I feel like I do. Blessed that I have a window well cover. Blessed to have found a handy man. Blessed to have bad pets curling up with me. Blessed to have a job with people I love and want to stay working with. Most importantly I am blessed with the people in my life....from the youngest to the oldest they all make my heart sing and for that I am forever blessed ;-).
Well I have faded hard and need to go lie down and get something for my pain. But I learned another thing. I cannot drink lots of milk due to the Vitamin D. It makes me feel worse. WAAAAAA. I love Raw Milk!!! WAAAAAAA...ok...whinning over. I will be happy I can eat chocolate ;-).
Take care...be safe...LU2PMBU
Saturday, December 23, 2006
12/23/06--ramblings of a tired 43 year old
I have temporarily stopped my antibiotic but not the benicar...I don't want to have a really bad bought at Christmas. I am definitely going to need migraine medication. I also think I am going to need some pain meds too for the occasion when advil doesn't cut it. But when I feel good it will be a good thing...the fact that I think I can feel good...is even a better thing.
I am definitely herxing on the 50 mino and 5 benicar. However, I have been taking the benicar with the mino where possible and that does lesson the symptoms. But does it lessen the rapidity of it dying?...that is the question. This is going to be a complicated journey but one I look forward to. I look forward to my physical fitness mirroring my spiritual and mental fitness. The possibilities when I feel good are endless. I love you Dr. Fishman!!! You to Carmen and the lab ladies. I am amazed at the potential I have seen and look forward to the holidays to be over so I can focus on getting well.
I don't play the what if game. It isn't fair to any body in life. I do however, have what my friend Linda calls day dream fodder. Day dream fodder for me would be being tired at the end of the day because of all the stuff that I did....instead of all the stuff I didn't have the energy to do. There are some who will understand that statement and get it on a cellular level. There are those who will wonder what the hell. For those people who wonder what the hell...bless you for the fact you don't know...it is a good thing for you ;-)...
I am however, tired, and today was the first day I have felt 1/2 way decent since Saturday. I really need to be very careful the next few days not to over do. God I miss over indulgence in horribly decadent food and drink. When you take food, drink and smoking out of the equation...indulgence is kind of boring. Well I am going to now and get some sleep.
Take care...be safe. Have a wonderful Holiday!!!
I am definitely herxing on the 50 mino and 5 benicar. However, I have been taking the benicar with the mino where possible and that does lesson the symptoms. But does it lessen the rapidity of it dying?...that is the question. This is going to be a complicated journey but one I look forward to. I look forward to my physical fitness mirroring my spiritual and mental fitness. The possibilities when I feel good are endless. I love you Dr. Fishman!!! You to Carmen and the lab ladies. I am amazed at the potential I have seen and look forward to the holidays to be over so I can focus on getting well.
I don't play the what if game. It isn't fair to any body in life. I do however, have what my friend Linda calls day dream fodder. Day dream fodder for me would be being tired at the end of the day because of all the stuff that I did....instead of all the stuff I didn't have the energy to do. There are some who will understand that statement and get it on a cellular level. There are those who will wonder what the hell. For those people who wonder what the hell...bless you for the fact you don't know...it is a good thing for you ;-)...
I am however, tired, and today was the first day I have felt 1/2 way decent since Saturday. I really need to be very careful the next few days not to over do. God I miss over indulgence in horribly decadent food and drink. When you take food, drink and smoking out of the equation...indulgence is kind of boring. Well I am going to now and get some sleep.
Take care...be safe. Have a wonderful Holiday!!!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
12/19/06-Happy Birthday Daisy Mae
Today is my dog's birthday!!! Ok...in fairness to her real mommy Linda she is our dog and she is under a joint custody agreement. She likes to tell people she is our own after school special..."Me and My two Mommies ;-)"...Of couse we keep trying to tell her we are not a couple but she would like it to be that way. Even if we both like men ;-).
She is 9 years old and a beautiful Australian Cattle dog. And I have the sign to prove it. I never thought I would own a dog, never would have the energy but I do and I do!!! YAY Dr. Fishman!!!! My meds to date and reactions follow...then the stuff about life ;-).
Please note that the patient consumed more sugar then any person should over the course of a 2 day period. Some reactions are not able to be separated from the protocol or sugar hang over ;-).
12/16--5 mg Benicar, normal thyroid and vitamin supplements.
I had a good day on Saturday 12/16 until I wrecked it with SUGAR!!! I woke up and walked Daisy, felt good...good enough that I spontaneously stopped by my sisters house and Mom, Robin and I all went on an errand together. It was nice. But not only did I binge on SUGAR on Friday night after I picked up Maxie..but I binged on Saturday when I got almond macaroons, hazelnut macaroons, and chocolate coconut macaroons. I was equally as bad on Sunday.
However, I have tracked a horrible ear pop right before my symptoms worsen. I felt like crap Saturday night, Sunday, and yesterday. This included and was not limited too....joint pain, horrible borderline migraine/headache, sun sensitivity, tummy ache due to wheat allergy (white flour, whole wheat I can do in limited quantifies), head congestion, lots of random squiggly pain, ears ringing, fatigue/exhaustion. I did have the horrible ear popping on Saturday.
12/17--5 benicar, 50 mg minocycle, normal thyroid and supplements. I felt like crap all day long. All day long. exact same symptoms on 12/15. I did eat to much sugar on Sunday. Way too much in the morning so I stopped the binge. I did have 2 glasses of Champagne and a piece of cake at Wendy's Birthday that was fun. It is the holiday season and I am going to allow myself the ability to enjoy. I will however be very selective in my choices and will not binge like I have did this weekend.
12/18--5 benicar, 50 minocycline, normal thyroid and supplements. I have to say in reviewing this I realized I took the minocycline back to back for 2 days...and interestingly yesterday i had the ear pop. The ear pop now means horrible symptoms and pain are on the horizon. I had it last Tuesday, I had it on Saturday afternoon before the crash started and I had it yesterday morning before my headache became unmanageable.
12/19--5 benecar, and normal thyroid and supplements -- Start here next time I post ;-).
I have noticed that my dizzyness is better, my heart doesn't flutter as much. Of, course I am on my supplements which is important for me. But even with them I notice it is not as unstable, which I guess is the word of the day for my body. I am however overwhelmed by the potential I feel for feeling good. On Saturday I was so mad that I wrecked how good I was feeling with Sugar. However, the potential for feeling better that I see is unlike I have ever seen. I mean if I could feel like that for a whole day...my goodness....what a miracle that would be!!!
It is like a tease. I wish I could describe it. Kind of like I have been living in a fog and all of the sudden it is lifting...just for a minute. The view from the horizon is stunning like something from the most beautiful place you can imagine. And for that moment you look in stunned beauty. The kind where you say I am so greatful to experience this in my life. And you forget to pull out the camera. And when the fog rolls back in you remember that you should, could of , would have enjoyed it more if you knew it was there only for an instant.
Some of the people I tell this too seem skeptical. I think my lack of complaining has made it difficult for people to believe I felt so crappy. Feeling crappy is bad enough. Feeling crappy and bitching about it doesn't make it better....only worse. I did what I could. I have spent my life looking for "it" the magic button that would make me feel better. But nothing worked consistently. I could never place a pattern on this. And over the years it and I have gotten worse. Some people see me as eccentric, crazy or whacked...and I am all of those things...but I had to be to survive. The one thing I am is a thriver not just a survivor. I strive to take any situation and make it better. If I cannot then I move to the next one I can.
I am a testimony that by changing the way you think you can change the outcome of your life. If I had succumb to feeling like shit and whining about it....allowing it to overwhelm me, and wallow in how badly I felt about all my life has been...well I doubt I would have made it out of my 20's. But instead I searched for something that would make me feel better physically and emotionally and in the progress have had a wonderful journey called my life.
For the good, bad and ugly it is a WONDERFUL ONE in which I am blessed daily by the people I love, who love me and who help me every day which their willingness to let me love and be loved. Well Sappy and Sentimental Sally resurfaces...she is the real one behind the Push Back Bitch Sally who lives at the NASD and sometimes with the people in her life that need a little push. I have been called brutally honest, assertive to a fault, and other euphemisms for a pushy broad...one who hopes that impact I make is one of leaving this world a better place. My mom has always said you leave a place better then you found it and I work hard to do that. I want my kids to have a better place for them....an easier way to find their magic button...that they can look for other things because they start out at a higher place then we do. Well Sappy and Sentimental Sally is getting to be tired and sleepy Sally.
Thank you for all the people that love me, who have put up with me for all these many years, who help keep me on track when I am beginning to falter off the course. And for all those people that help guide me. Thanks for sticking with me and having fun during the processes.
Take care...be safe...lu2pmbu
She is 9 years old and a beautiful Australian Cattle dog. And I have the sign to prove it. I never thought I would own a dog, never would have the energy but I do and I do!!! YAY Dr. Fishman!!!! My meds to date and reactions follow...then the stuff about life ;-).
Please note that the patient consumed more sugar then any person should over the course of a 2 day period. Some reactions are not able to be separated from the protocol or sugar hang over ;-).
12/16--5 mg Benicar, normal thyroid and vitamin supplements.
I had a good day on Saturday 12/16 until I wrecked it with SUGAR!!! I woke up and walked Daisy, felt good...good enough that I spontaneously stopped by my sisters house and Mom, Robin and I all went on an errand together. It was nice. But not only did I binge on SUGAR on Friday night after I picked up Maxie..but I binged on Saturday when I got almond macaroons, hazelnut macaroons, and chocolate coconut macaroons. I was equally as bad on Sunday.
However, I have tracked a horrible ear pop right before my symptoms worsen. I felt like crap Saturday night, Sunday, and yesterday. This included and was not limited too....joint pain, horrible borderline migraine/headache, sun sensitivity, tummy ache due to wheat allergy (white flour, whole wheat I can do in limited quantifies), head congestion, lots of random squiggly pain, ears ringing, fatigue/exhaustion. I did have the horrible ear popping on Saturday.
12/17--5 benicar, 50 mg minocycle, normal thyroid and supplements. I felt like crap all day long. All day long. exact same symptoms on 12/15. I did eat to much sugar on Sunday. Way too much in the morning so I stopped the binge. I did have 2 glasses of Champagne and a piece of cake at Wendy's Birthday that was fun. It is the holiday season and I am going to allow myself the ability to enjoy. I will however be very selective in my choices and will not binge like I have did this weekend.
12/18--5 benicar, 50 minocycline, normal thyroid and supplements. I have to say in reviewing this I realized I took the minocycline back to back for 2 days...and interestingly yesterday i had the ear pop. The ear pop now means horrible symptoms and pain are on the horizon. I had it last Tuesday, I had it on Saturday afternoon before the crash started and I had it yesterday morning before my headache became unmanageable.
12/19--5 benecar, and normal thyroid and supplements -- Start here next time I post ;-).
I have noticed that my dizzyness is better, my heart doesn't flutter as much. Of, course I am on my supplements which is important for me. But even with them I notice it is not as unstable, which I guess is the word of the day for my body. I am however overwhelmed by the potential I feel for feeling good. On Saturday I was so mad that I wrecked how good I was feeling with Sugar. However, the potential for feeling better that I see is unlike I have ever seen. I mean if I could feel like that for a whole day...my goodness....what a miracle that would be!!!
It is like a tease. I wish I could describe it. Kind of like I have been living in a fog and all of the sudden it is lifting...just for a minute. The view from the horizon is stunning like something from the most beautiful place you can imagine. And for that moment you look in stunned beauty. The kind where you say I am so greatful to experience this in my life. And you forget to pull out the camera. And when the fog rolls back in you remember that you should, could of , would have enjoyed it more if you knew it was there only for an instant.
Some of the people I tell this too seem skeptical. I think my lack of complaining has made it difficult for people to believe I felt so crappy. Feeling crappy is bad enough. Feeling crappy and bitching about it doesn't make it better....only worse. I did what I could. I have spent my life looking for "it" the magic button that would make me feel better. But nothing worked consistently. I could never place a pattern on this. And over the years it and I have gotten worse. Some people see me as eccentric, crazy or whacked...and I am all of those things...but I had to be to survive. The one thing I am is a thriver not just a survivor. I strive to take any situation and make it better. If I cannot then I move to the next one I can.
I am a testimony that by changing the way you think you can change the outcome of your life. If I had succumb to feeling like shit and whining about it....allowing it to overwhelm me, and wallow in how badly I felt about all my life has been...well I doubt I would have made it out of my 20's. But instead I searched for something that would make me feel better physically and emotionally and in the progress have had a wonderful journey called my life.
For the good, bad and ugly it is a WONDERFUL ONE in which I am blessed daily by the people I love, who love me and who help me every day which their willingness to let me love and be loved. Well Sappy and Sentimental Sally resurfaces...she is the real one behind the Push Back Bitch Sally who lives at the NASD and sometimes with the people in her life that need a little push. I have been called brutally honest, assertive to a fault, and other euphemisms for a pushy broad...one who hopes that impact I make is one of leaving this world a better place. My mom has always said you leave a place better then you found it and I work hard to do that. I want my kids to have a better place for them....an easier way to find their magic button...that they can look for other things because they start out at a higher place then we do. Well Sappy and Sentimental Sally is getting to be tired and sleepy Sally.
Thank you for all the people that love me, who have put up with me for all these many years, who help keep me on track when I am beginning to falter off the course. And for all those people that help guide me. Thanks for sticking with me and having fun during the processes.
Take care...be safe...lu2pmbu
Saturday, December 16, 2006
12/15/06--Nice Day with Mom
12/15 --Took Benicar 12/14 night and was suppose to take minocycline yesterday but didn't get it till last night. It says to not take with food and I have a hard time with that and antibotics. So I take it at night after a bit of dark chocolate ...which is a luxary not a food ;-). But otherwise my stomach is torn up if I don't take it with food. I felt good yesterday. Minimal symptoms. Actually very good. I did have a bit of twitching but that is not unusal and my tummy has been ouchy with any wheat product on it. A bit of joint pain...not to much heart stuff...way too much sugar and white flour ;-). I am drinking a lot of bicarb these days. So far this morning I am over tired and that does cause me to have more symptoms so I am going back to sleep after I write this..much to a dog's sadness ;-)>
I need to get more probiotics. But it was a good day even with symptoms. Because honestly there where those 2 30 minute days in my life where I didn't feel anything weird. So I will even be happy with just good days like yesterday. And only 1 day of month on a weekend when I feel like I did on Tuesday. Thursdays was sucky too but Tuesday that was too much. But yesterday was a good day ;-). And that was nice cause I was with mom.
Mom and I had a good day together. After a rocky start but honest one. We went to the doctor and then over to the Kentlands to see the places we would like to be mom's new home sometime soon. She like it and there where all sorts of people there. She saw how close it was to me and all sorts of places. She also took me out to dinner at my favorite place -- Woodside Deli. She had a Ruben and my favorite potatoes and i had eggs. It was nice. Then we went back to my house and breezed back to Robbie's. Later I went and picked up Maxie and his friend near my house. They where at a party. I love my boys....They are they best ;-). I love my girls too but I don't think they see me as theirs like the boys do. Speaking of girls. Terzza (sorry for the horrible spelling) is the most beautiful girl...I didn't see Harry but my goodness. Of course Dave and Mimi are no slouches...they are nice, pretty, smart ;-). All good things.
Well I have a dog....just staring at me like I was the stupidest human on earth. And she would be write. No animals are going to let me go back to sleep till they have walk and food and maybe chick fillet ;-)...oh that is for me.
Take care...be safe....LU2PMBU
I need to get more probiotics. But it was a good day even with symptoms. Because honestly there where those 2 30 minute days in my life where I didn't feel anything weird. So I will even be happy with just good days like yesterday. And only 1 day of month on a weekend when I feel like I did on Tuesday. Thursdays was sucky too but Tuesday that was too much. But yesterday was a good day ;-). And that was nice cause I was with mom.
Mom and I had a good day together. After a rocky start but honest one. We went to the doctor and then over to the Kentlands to see the places we would like to be mom's new home sometime soon. She like it and there where all sorts of people there. She saw how close it was to me and all sorts of places. She also took me out to dinner at my favorite place -- Woodside Deli. She had a Ruben and my favorite potatoes and i had eggs. It was nice. Then we went back to my house and breezed back to Robbie's. Later I went and picked up Maxie and his friend near my house. They where at a party. I love my boys....They are they best ;-). I love my girls too but I don't think they see me as theirs like the boys do. Speaking of girls. Terzza (sorry for the horrible spelling) is the most beautiful girl...I didn't see Harry but my goodness. Of course Dave and Mimi are no slouches...they are nice, pretty, smart ;-). All good things.
Well I have a dog....just staring at me like I was the stupidest human on earth. And she would be write. No animals are going to let me go back to sleep till they have walk and food and maybe chick fillet ;-)...oh that is for me.
Take care...be safe....LU2PMBU
Thursday, December 14, 2006
12/14--bad day emotionally and physically
Everything was fine today...except for me ;-). I had a bad day physically. Really tired, twitchy, headachey, my wrist hurt alot...basically i felt like crap...only know I understand why. I am thinking that I am not going to find a pattern in the symptoms...that explains what is happening in my body. Maybe after the holidays when the food I am eating doesn't make it worse. Although tonight I had rice crackers and steak ;-).
Although even Pollyanna's succumbs to bouts of poor mee and today was one of those days. I am whiny...need a tropical drink and hot tub. Need just time to relax...I think I have forgotten how. The last time I really relaxed was at the Akers ;-)...that would have been Katie's graduation...in June of 2005. That is a long time not to have relaxed for...oh well...it's not like I never relax. Just not in a stretch that makes enough of a difference ;-). Maybe when I start meditating and working out really hard it will help me relax more...or really good dirty sex...but i made a stupid commitment to myself...so sex toys it is for me ;-)...sorry if I offended anyone. I miss indiscriminate sex and good drunken nights.
Of course to my kids...remember I never drank and drove...so please remember the life you can save maybe your own. Jean said to me one time when asked why she didn't speed..."I think of them telling Katie "Your mother died on the way to a meeting" and that keeps me in check. Now while it has not kept me from speeding it does keep me from being an aggressive driver.
Because I may not have a child directly but I have my share...Sunny is one too....;-)...but I have people that love me that would be very sad if something happened to me. So when I want to drive agressively and speed more then 10 miles over the limit. I hear Jean in my head. So Thank you Jean. Things like that are a constant reminder of how one small thing you say or do for someone can make a huge difference!!! Which is why I always try to treat people like I want to be treated. Sometimes people have a bad day. Sometimes they are down because they feel overworked and not appreciated...or they spilled coffee on their white shirt, skirt, or pants, or the want to fix what is broken only no one can let me. We all have them...the trick is to not make them count more then the blessings ;-). And to have good friends who you can vent to thank you Linda.
Linda by far more then any one person personafies love, good, happiness, and dogs (sorry Mychelle, Sheila, and Max....you all are tied for 2nd place on the dog thing...everyone else is 3rd ;-). Now for those who see angel and that is all of her...she has a very bad horrible child side too. Trust me...she does ;-). She also has...well then we would be going into archetypal contact's and that is for another day. Actually that is for Carolyn Myss to tall not me. When I vented to her about my woes she said "you have to get it out so it is not toxifying your body ;-). And Venting is important...living in the negative....that is the deadly thing ;-). She is also the person I know who is sick the least. YAY for being nice ;-).
The flip side of treating people how you want to be treated is that you have a tendency to let yourself be used if you are not careful. Being nice doesn't mean being a dormat...it means taking a stand for yourself....nicely. It is worth it....the point is not to hide from life...but to live it with gusto and not to get arrested while you are gustoing ;-).
take care... be safe....lu2pmbu ...hey anyone know how to sync their ipod on more then one computer?
Although even Pollyanna's succumbs to bouts of poor mee and today was one of those days. I am whiny...need a tropical drink and hot tub. Need just time to relax...I think I have forgotten how. The last time I really relaxed was at the Akers ;-)...that would have been Katie's graduation...in June of 2005. That is a long time not to have relaxed for...oh well...it's not like I never relax. Just not in a stretch that makes enough of a difference ;-). Maybe when I start meditating and working out really hard it will help me relax more...or really good dirty sex...but i made a stupid commitment to myself...so sex toys it is for me ;-)...sorry if I offended anyone. I miss indiscriminate sex and good drunken nights.
Of course to my kids...remember I never drank and drove...so please remember the life you can save maybe your own. Jean said to me one time when asked why she didn't speed..."I think of them telling Katie "Your mother died on the way to a meeting" and that keeps me in check. Now while it has not kept me from speeding it does keep me from being an aggressive driver.
Because I may not have a child directly but I have my share...Sunny is one too....;-)...but I have people that love me that would be very sad if something happened to me. So when I want to drive agressively and speed more then 10 miles over the limit. I hear Jean in my head. So Thank you Jean. Things like that are a constant reminder of how one small thing you say or do for someone can make a huge difference!!! Which is why I always try to treat people like I want to be treated. Sometimes people have a bad day. Sometimes they are down because they feel overworked and not appreciated...or they spilled coffee on their white shirt, skirt, or pants, or the want to fix what is broken only no one can let me. We all have them...the trick is to not make them count more then the blessings ;-). And to have good friends who you can vent to thank you Linda.
Linda by far more then any one person personafies love, good, happiness, and dogs (sorry Mychelle, Sheila, and Max....you all are tied for 2nd place on the dog thing...everyone else is 3rd ;-). Now for those who see angel and that is all of her...she has a very bad horrible child side too. Trust me...she does ;-). She also has...well then we would be going into archetypal contact's and that is for another day. Actually that is for Carolyn Myss to tall not me. When I vented to her about my woes she said "you have to get it out so it is not toxifying your body ;-). And Venting is important...living in the negative....that is the deadly thing ;-). She is also the person I know who is sick the least. YAY for being nice ;-).
The flip side of treating people how you want to be treated is that you have a tendency to let yourself be used if you are not careful. Being nice doesn't mean being a dormat...it means taking a stand for yourself....nicely. It is worth it....the point is not to hide from life...but to live it with gusto and not to get arrested while you are gustoing ;-).
take care... be safe....lu2pmbu ...hey anyone know how to sync their ipod on more then one computer?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
12/13/06--Quiet today
Thanks for stopping by today. Well today was a good day physically and this evening has been pretty good too. A little heart fluttering but not bad, some joint pain especially in my wrist..must wear mitts tonight ;-). My tummy is more sensitive to wheat product. Even whole wheat products are bugging it so I might make some macaroons and some almond flour cookies for me this holiday season. Do mouse instead of cake and of course my lovely chocolate ;-). Fatigue but not bad, not too much dizziness, over all a good day. I am glad I was able to get to the point I could drive last night. That is the hardest thing sometimes. The dizziness, woozy, lightheaded feeling...not wanting to drive because I don't want to run the risk that I will get thrown off my equilibrium. But now at least I know why I get dizzy.
I slept well last night. I think the Benicar by the pure nature that is lowers your blood pressure helps me sleep. I know when I took it the other day during the day I was much more fatigued. Might be time to start tracking my blood pressure and temperature. The blood pressure to see if I could take it maybe 2 times or 3 a day at a dose of 5 mg's.
Much to my Derick's (my wonderful, fabulouse, brother-in-law...i only put that because people would think my family was toatlly whacked if I said my sister was married to my brother)...delight I will be a Sally Fallon convert after the holidays. I think it will be critical as long as I am on the antibiotics. I will of course have my fall offs. Like Vegas and then when I go out to CA hopefully in 2007. But for the most part of I will be doing Sally all the way. It will require a lot of work on my part. I will have to be planning and preparing my food for the week.
I will be working to keep up my body temperature too. The lyme's guys don't like them. I will provide some links at the end for you to read up more on lyme's. 2 things that will help me keep my body temperature up and that is 1 working out for about 1 hour a day. This will be good for me but also if I can keep my body temperature above 99 as much as I can they will die faster. Now I do not plan on finding ways to keep myself in a perpetual state of fever ;-). I would be happy with keeping my body temperature at 98.6 for more then a few hours of the day. But it is getting better with the Iodine. I will also take a nice 1/2 hour soak every evening before bed. This will also be my meditation time. I will do blessings and watch the soap (my nasty vice Linda Lee left when she moved out ;-)...and a WONDERFUL DOG...
I will also be working on making sure I keep myself supplemented too ;-). That makes a big difference. The calcium/magnesium helps my heart and my back. The Q10 helps the heart as well and circulation and gums. Blah, Blah, Blah. I do think if I hadn't taken my supplements since I turned 35 (thanks to my Mommy who has done so well all her life and took them regularly) I would be in much worse shape. Much worse shape YAY vitamins!!! YAY better living through chemistry. YAY for the possibility of feeling better!! With the right approach of body, mind, and spirit I can do this...I do believe.
Well I am getting tired and need to take my benicar...take the dog out one more time. I invite you all who are reading this to do one unselfish thing for someone who needs it. A random act of kindness. Pay it forward (Great Movie!!!)!!! Treat others like you want to be treated and follow your gut instinct!! I didn't proof read this just posting before my eyes close.
Take care...be safe...LU2PMBU
I slept well last night. I think the Benicar by the pure nature that is lowers your blood pressure helps me sleep. I know when I took it the other day during the day I was much more fatigued. Might be time to start tracking my blood pressure and temperature. The blood pressure to see if I could take it maybe 2 times or 3 a day at a dose of 5 mg's.
Much to my Derick's (my wonderful, fabulouse, brother-in-law...i only put that because people would think my family was toatlly whacked if I said my sister was married to my brother)...delight I will be a Sally Fallon convert after the holidays. I think it will be critical as long as I am on the antibiotics. I will of course have my fall offs. Like Vegas and then when I go out to CA hopefully in 2007. But for the most part of I will be doing Sally all the way. It will require a lot of work on my part. I will have to be planning and preparing my food for the week.
I will be working to keep up my body temperature too. The lyme's guys don't like them. I will provide some links at the end for you to read up more on lyme's. 2 things that will help me keep my body temperature up and that is 1 working out for about 1 hour a day. This will be good for me but also if I can keep my body temperature above 99 as much as I can they will die faster. Now I do not plan on finding ways to keep myself in a perpetual state of fever ;-). I would be happy with keeping my body temperature at 98.6 for more then a few hours of the day. But it is getting better with the Iodine. I will also take a nice 1/2 hour soak every evening before bed. This will also be my meditation time. I will do blessings and watch the soap (my nasty vice Linda Lee left when she moved out ;-)...and a WONDERFUL DOG...
I will also be working on making sure I keep myself supplemented too ;-). That makes a big difference. The calcium/magnesium helps my heart and my back. The Q10 helps the heart as well and circulation and gums. Blah, Blah, Blah. I do think if I hadn't taken my supplements since I turned 35 (thanks to my Mommy who has done so well all her life and took them regularly) I would be in much worse shape. Much worse shape YAY vitamins!!! YAY better living through chemistry. YAY for the possibility of feeling better!! With the right approach of body, mind, and spirit I can do this...I do believe.
Well I am getting tired and need to take my benicar...take the dog out one more time. I invite you all who are reading this to do one unselfish thing for someone who needs it. A random act of kindness. Pay it forward (Great Movie!!!)!!! Treat others like you want to be treated and follow your gut instinct!! I didn't proof read this just posting before my eyes close.
Take care...be safe...LU2PMBU
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
my blessings
I was at a band recital tonight. It was much like Mr. Holland's Opus. The gentleman Mr. Ball has taught music at that school for 30 years. I can only imagine how it must be to be in the same place all your life. The band was great they where 6th, 7th, 8th, strings, and Jazz . All the kids did a great job. It was for Cole my 6th grade nephew (you did GREAT)...my coley woley puddin in a pie ;-)...my jokester...my boy who always let me read Dr. Seuss when I wanted ;-). At one point during the strings I teared up...Imagine me...teary eyed and sentimental ;-). Imagine me at a movie ;-). I did...I thought of all my kids...Michael, Mackenzie, Katie, and Mason...my first batch of kids ;-)...all the recitals, basket ball games, Christmas concerts, good plays, bad plays (sorry there where one or two), graduations. The fact that all my kids will still play the LU2PMBU is important to me. So yes....I am blessed with wonderful family. Their parents my friends...and I hope they consider me their friend/aunt.
Sloppy and Sentimental Sally is out for the holiday season. She is greatful so greatful that Mommy made it threw the year and is kicking ass and taking names ;-). Just wait till she is out hear and really running the show. I have a whole list of things for us to do ..... including driving down to the Shenandoah in the fall. I am greatful for my other kids. The ones that will always know me as Aunt Sally even if they call me Sal. And tonight from littlest to oldest...Cole, Sean, Max, Jimmy and Wes. I am an equal opportunity lister ;-). You have all brought joy and love into my life like no other. Damn I am a lucky women.
I am greatful I stopped smoking this year and that all the people that love me never judged me all the times I tired to quit before. For those that want the secret to that ... it was simple...Carolyn Myss a Medical Intuitive and spiritual healer said "We all want devine guidance...but how can you receive any more devine wisdom if you don't act on the guidance you are already given." Made perfect sense to me. So in her guided visualization I released it...cannot wait for her book the "Inner Castle" to come out in 2007. I had no cravings, no symptoms, no weight gain...just let them go.
I am greatful for the Lymes disease...greatful it is something I can attack. Something I can do something about. The hardest thing in the world for me to do is to not fix something when it is broken. It is my job...it is who i am..it is the mediator in me...the troubleshooter in me. So when I see something is broken and others do to but they won't let me fix it. Well that is a challenge to say the least.
So now I have a plan of attack...I can work on fixing it....making it better even if it is worse before it gets there. Cause this will be a roller coaster ride...hang on to your seat belts....and enjoy the ride. The ride is part of my process. I have known all my life that the hardest part of my life is behind me. Actually and now that I know I am not crazy and that I am sick ;-0...is the best part.
I am greatful for Doctor Fishman for figuring it out. And for Dr. Sato for helping me cope all these years and helping me to feel the best that I could. He is a fabulous Doctor and I am forever greatful for him. Dr. Fishman has helped me to feel the best that I have in my life. And that is a gift I can only say Thank You for over and over and over again. Once I have a wonderful healthy baked good recipe he will be my first gift...of course everyone else watch out while we go through some good and bad samples ;-).
I am of course greatful for all my wonderful friends...the whole Californian contingent...those that live or visit frequently Happy Akers retirement community...and those in Riverside. My friends and family in Denver, FL, NC, and those in VA, W VA & MD. This is order by furthest away to closest as not to offended anyone ;-). Without my friends my life would have and be so empty.
I am greatful for those 3 people that have known me all my life...Mommy, Robbie, and Stever. I could have had anyone else in the universe but I choose you!! I AM A DAMN GOOD PICKER!! Even when you are PITA ... you figure out what it means ;-).
I am greatful for my bad pets, my home, my car, the food that nourishes my body, all the things that make my life so easy....and all the things I forget to be thankful for. I am greatful to have such a wonderful Boss (Vern) and Team (Once a VISTA person always a VISTA person) and a great job. I don't want this blog that is chronicling specifically the pain I carry with me to leave you all with any other idea then I love my life. Everything from this point on is Icing on the cake. I have rambled long enough...
take care...be safe...I love you all to pieces mieces beat you all!!!
Sloppy and Sentimental Sally is out for the holiday season. She is greatful so greatful that Mommy made it threw the year and is kicking ass and taking names ;-). Just wait till she is out hear and really running the show. I have a whole list of things for us to do ..... including driving down to the Shenandoah in the fall. I am greatful for my other kids. The ones that will always know me as Aunt Sally even if they call me Sal. And tonight from littlest to oldest...Cole, Sean, Max, Jimmy and Wes. I am an equal opportunity lister ;-). You have all brought joy and love into my life like no other. Damn I am a lucky women.
I am greatful I stopped smoking this year and that all the people that love me never judged me all the times I tired to quit before. For those that want the secret to that ... it was simple...Carolyn Myss a Medical Intuitive and spiritual healer said "We all want devine guidance...but how can you receive any more devine wisdom if you don't act on the guidance you are already given." Made perfect sense to me. So in her guided visualization I released it...cannot wait for her book the "Inner Castle" to come out in 2007. I had no cravings, no symptoms, no weight gain...just let them go.
I am greatful for the Lymes disease...greatful it is something I can attack. Something I can do something about. The hardest thing in the world for me to do is to not fix something when it is broken. It is my job...it is who i am..it is the mediator in me...the troubleshooter in me. So when I see something is broken and others do to but they won't let me fix it. Well that is a challenge to say the least.
So now I have a plan of attack...I can work on fixing it....making it better even if it is worse before it gets there. Cause this will be a roller coaster ride...hang on to your seat belts....and enjoy the ride. The ride is part of my process. I have known all my life that the hardest part of my life is behind me. Actually and now that I know I am not crazy and that I am sick ;-0...is the best part.
I am greatful for Doctor Fishman for figuring it out. And for Dr. Sato for helping me cope all these years and helping me to feel the best that I could. He is a fabulous Doctor and I am forever greatful for him. Dr. Fishman has helped me to feel the best that I have in my life. And that is a gift I can only say Thank You for over and over and over again. Once I have a wonderful healthy baked good recipe he will be my first gift...of course everyone else watch out while we go through some good and bad samples ;-).
I am of course greatful for all my wonderful friends...the whole Californian contingent...those that live or visit frequently Happy Akers retirement community...and those in Riverside. My friends and family in Denver, FL, NC, and those in VA, W VA & MD. This is order by furthest away to closest as not to offended anyone ;-). Without my friends my life would have and be so empty.
I am greatful for those 3 people that have known me all my life...Mommy, Robbie, and Stever. I could have had anyone else in the universe but I choose you!! I AM A DAMN GOOD PICKER!! Even when you are PITA ... you figure out what it means ;-).
I am greatful for my bad pets, my home, my car, the food that nourishes my body, all the things that make my life so easy....and all the things I forget to be thankful for. I am greatful to have such a wonderful Boss (Vern) and Team (Once a VISTA person always a VISTA person) and a great job. I don't want this blog that is chronicling specifically the pain I carry with me to leave you all with any other idea then I love my life. Everything from this point on is Icing on the cake. I have rambled long enough...
take care...be safe...I love you all to pieces mieces beat you all!!!
12/12/06 -- All meds and reactions till 12/12/06
Well I am already a day behind in my posting but at least I am trying to keep up. The good news is yesterday I had a 30 minute period where I felt normal/GOOD/FABULOUS even and that was because nothing on me hurt, or twitched or felt chilled or squiggly pain or whatever. I felt what I guess millions of people feel everyday...nothing....and it was WONDERFUL!!! Unfortunately short lived...but it gives me hope!! So below is what was done in the actually almost 48 hours. Also my IPOD is almost all loaded with my cd's and I am in hog heaven!! Next best thing to TIVO ever!!! Especially if you are a music junkie!!. Also to my friends in different time zones I keep going to dial but the time difference screws me...so feel free to call me anytime ;-).
Ok. I am backing up to layout the meds I took when and the reactions. Please understand I have never chronicled my pain before except to say it gets worse with sugar, white flour, smoke either first or second hand, lack of sleep and stress ;-). I have cut out most white flour, sugar, and smoke. But not stress and sleep. And this time of year white sugar and flour be damned ;-).
Friday night around 10:00 pm I took my first dosage of minocycline 50 mg. Saturday I felt like crap all normal symptoms, fatigue, random pain, joint pain, heart afibish, head aches, although I did have some stomach cramping too which I hadn't had in a while. but I have felt that way for the last 1 1/2 months since I was taking the Vitamin D so I put that up to the half life finally leaving.
Saturday night I started the Benicar 5 mg. Benicar is a blood pressure lowering medication that also has anti-bacterial agents. However, since my blood pressure is low to begin with we are doing this just at night for me. Other people do it every 8 hours to keep pulling the lymes guys out. But we cannot do that with my blood pressure. Unless it is a bad day at work like the day I went to see my doctor..then it was 120/78 which is great ;-). But the stress that day that caused it was too much ;-). Ok back to my reaction.
Sunday was a good day I took my antibiotic in the morning. I was relatively symptom free not entirely but didn't feel horrible like I do today. There was about a 12 hour period from Sunday early afternoon to around 9:00 that I felt good. Not like yesterday where I had a bit of time with no symptoms but I felt good. I still took the opportunity to watch a movie and chill as Friday and Saturday I worked late and most of the day off and on Saturday. Then Benicar again Sunday night. I do notice that about 1/2 hour after taking the Benicar I get a serious chill depending on how late it is and how much iodine I have in my systems is how much it makes me chilled. The first night I took it was like around midnight and 1/2 hour later I got the kind of cold that I did before I got the thyroid medication...teeth chattering, bone chilled, shivering kind of cold. THANK GOD I DON'T GET THAT ANYMORE!!
Monday was a good day. I had symptoms in the morning and then I started to feel better. Right before I started to feel better I had one of those horrible ear ringing to almost a pop and then I started to feel better. And then a bit later I had an entire 30 minutes where I felt light like I never have before...of course it was short lived. However, if I can have a feeling like that ever is a fricken miracle!!!! By the evening I started to feeling some symptoms but they where not as bad as normally...which was great. I enjoyed feeling good for a minute ;-)
Tuesday is not such a good day. I am feel pretty badly today even though I got lots of rest last night. I took a shower last night around 10:30 pm and fell asleep till 6:30. am this morning. I didn't even take my benicar or shut the lights down ;-). This morning I woke up and I am dizzy, cold (but took thyroid late), twitching (my eye and cheeks twitch but you cannot see them), no head ache thank goodness, joints ache and random pain..oh and heart fluttering a bit. I do however not get to take any more then the cookies I can reasonably eat in 1 day (3 or 4). All the white flour and sugar are too much for me. Good news is Chocolate doesn't have much sugar and it has enough fiber to be in the good food category ;-).
Well I need to get back to work. I am not even re-reading this....
Take care...be safe....
Ok. I am backing up to layout the meds I took when and the reactions. Please understand I have never chronicled my pain before except to say it gets worse with sugar, white flour, smoke either first or second hand, lack of sleep and stress ;-). I have cut out most white flour, sugar, and smoke. But not stress and sleep. And this time of year white sugar and flour be damned ;-).
Friday night around 10:00 pm I took my first dosage of minocycline 50 mg. Saturday I felt like crap all normal symptoms, fatigue, random pain, joint pain, heart afibish, head aches, although I did have some stomach cramping too which I hadn't had in a while. but I have felt that way for the last 1 1/2 months since I was taking the Vitamin D so I put that up to the half life finally leaving.
Saturday night I started the Benicar 5 mg. Benicar is a blood pressure lowering medication that also has anti-bacterial agents. However, since my blood pressure is low to begin with we are doing this just at night for me. Other people do it every 8 hours to keep pulling the lymes guys out. But we cannot do that with my blood pressure. Unless it is a bad day at work like the day I went to see my doctor..then it was 120/78 which is great ;-). But the stress that day that caused it was too much ;-). Ok back to my reaction.
Sunday was a good day I took my antibiotic in the morning. I was relatively symptom free not entirely but didn't feel horrible like I do today. There was about a 12 hour period from Sunday early afternoon to around 9:00 that I felt good. Not like yesterday where I had a bit of time with no symptoms but I felt good. I still took the opportunity to watch a movie and chill as Friday and Saturday I worked late and most of the day off and on Saturday. Then Benicar again Sunday night. I do notice that about 1/2 hour after taking the Benicar I get a serious chill depending on how late it is and how much iodine I have in my systems is how much it makes me chilled. The first night I took it was like around midnight and 1/2 hour later I got the kind of cold that I did before I got the thyroid medication...teeth chattering, bone chilled, shivering kind of cold. THANK GOD I DON'T GET THAT ANYMORE!!
Monday was a good day. I had symptoms in the morning and then I started to feel better. Right before I started to feel better I had one of those horrible ear ringing to almost a pop and then I started to feel better. And then a bit later I had an entire 30 minutes where I felt light like I never have before...of course it was short lived. However, if I can have a feeling like that ever is a fricken miracle!!!! By the evening I started to feeling some symptoms but they where not as bad as normally...which was great. I enjoyed feeling good for a minute ;-)
Tuesday is not such a good day. I am feel pretty badly today even though I got lots of rest last night. I took a shower last night around 10:30 pm and fell asleep till 6:30. am this morning. I didn't even take my benicar or shut the lights down ;-). This morning I woke up and I am dizzy, cold (but took thyroid late), twitching (my eye and cheeks twitch but you cannot see them), no head ache thank goodness, joints ache and random pain..oh and heart fluttering a bit. I do however not get to take any more then the cookies I can reasonably eat in 1 day (3 or 4). All the white flour and sugar are too much for me. Good news is Chocolate doesn't have much sugar and it has enough fiber to be in the good food category ;-).
Well I need to get back to work. I am not even re-reading this....
Take care...be safe....
Sunday, December 10, 2006
12/10/2006--1st day of my protocol
Well today is the first day of my Lyme's protocol. Of course it could change after the results of my blood work last week. If I am co-infected then I will need to do some different antibiotics before treating the lymes...it is all very complicated and hard for me to digest it all. Of course they say you shouldn't over tire yourself, have too much stress, eat sugar, white flour or drink, their are no restrictions on sex thank goodness ;-)...gotta have some vices ;=). Of course my job is overly stressful and will only get worse the coming months and year. The holiday adds some stress, and I have a vacation planned to Vegas in January. No drinking right ;-)...I will do my best but make no promises on vacation ;-). My goal next year is to convert all my favorite recipe to a healthy version. So I can use one for everyday and one for special occasions. Sally Fallon here I come ;-).
I will attack this on a 3 pronged level. 1st is medical. I will do what the doctor says. In the last year I have raised my good cholorestrol to 45. I have never broken 35 before. And I lowered my cardiac risk by 5 points which is significant but that was with Diet and Exercise. I walk daisy almost 1 mile a day and that is a good thing. I love that damn dog...I don't like dogs you know...but I have one and I love her more then I thought I would...and 2 cats...ok 3...but that one lives with my sister's family...it is Cole's cat...i gave it to him. I love my kids. I may not have children but I didn't miss much because all my friends and family where generous enough to share theirs with me. They will all tell you I cry at all movies and loudest of all at Little Women, Ordinary People, Lion King, and they love me for it ;-). I hold those children dear in my heart even the ones that are adults or emerging adults. Oh sloppy sentimental Sally has come out. She must be stopped ;=). Just ask my team after a big project and a cocktail or two.
Today was a nice day. I didn't have any symptom's so to speak. Tomorrow I should feel like hell but those lymes can die, die, die ;-). I did start the antibiotic Friday night and Saturday I felt like crap. I need to start detailing what that feels like. The random pain. (I wish I could draw it since I am a loss of words to describe it), my brain fog, energy level, ringing of the ears, head congestion, heart irregularities, sound sensitivity, extreme start reaction, headaches, sun sensitivity, dizziness (hard one to track since it is so common), sleep disturbances, these should fall in the category is when they don't happen is more of a rarity, joint pain, and of course my favorite the fatigue.
So yesterday was a bad day physically but that is actually a good thing. As the lyme's bacteria die they release toxins that make your symptoms worse. Which would equate to their 4 week life cycle but they they will die every other day. So my protocol is 5 mg Benicar a day at bedtime and 1 50 mg minocyline every other day. The Benicar is a blood pressure lowering med and that is why I am on a low dose and at bed time. My blood pressure is already low so at night is better since I can sleep through the effects. Fatigue and dizziness. Then the next day a does of Minocyline. The Benicar unmasks the lyme bacteria because the longer they are in your body...the more they morph and find deeper places to hide. They also steal themselves for stress which is the antibiotic...hence why we do it every other day...to keep them off guard.
That is the antibiotic that will kill the bacteria. They will die, toxins are release...i feel crappy...next day we leave them alone...i feel good...repeat. It was amazing to me when I found out about this whole thing. It explained so much for me...it was like a light going on. Whoa...that is me....i feel like that...i do that...omg all those symptoms are mine... The good news is I can treat it. Tomorrow should be a bad day physically and if it is that will mean the protocol is working. God I hope this works. If I could have the energy to do a lot of things that I would like to do...that would be the greatest gift of all. OMG...well I am greatful for whatever I got. The Thyroid meds made a huge difference and without it 2 cats, a dog and a home wouldn't be possible. Well, I have chores and since it takes me twice as long to do them as others...i best get started.
take care...be safe...remember to take time to sleep, eat, exercise, and do something to make yourself smile.
I will attack this on a 3 pronged level. 1st is medical. I will do what the doctor says. In the last year I have raised my good cholorestrol to 45. I have never broken 35 before. And I lowered my cardiac risk by 5 points which is significant but that was with Diet and Exercise. I walk daisy almost 1 mile a day and that is a good thing. I love that damn dog...I don't like dogs you know...but I have one and I love her more then I thought I would...and 2 cats...ok 3...but that one lives with my sister's family...it is Cole's cat...i gave it to him. I love my kids. I may not have children but I didn't miss much because all my friends and family where generous enough to share theirs with me. They will all tell you I cry at all movies and loudest of all at Little Women, Ordinary People, Lion King, and they love me for it ;-). I hold those children dear in my heart even the ones that are adults or emerging adults. Oh sloppy sentimental Sally has come out. She must be stopped ;=). Just ask my team after a big project and a cocktail or two.
Today was a nice day. I didn't have any symptom's so to speak. Tomorrow I should feel like hell but those lymes can die, die, die ;-). I did start the antibiotic Friday night and Saturday I felt like crap. I need to start detailing what that feels like. The random pain. (I wish I could draw it since I am a loss of words to describe it), my brain fog, energy level, ringing of the ears, head congestion, heart irregularities, sound sensitivity, extreme start reaction, headaches, sun sensitivity, dizziness (hard one to track since it is so common), sleep disturbances, these should fall in the category is when they don't happen is more of a rarity, joint pain, and of course my favorite the fatigue.
So yesterday was a bad day physically but that is actually a good thing. As the lyme's bacteria die they release toxins that make your symptoms worse. Which would equate to their 4 week life cycle but they they will die every other day. So my protocol is 5 mg Benicar a day at bedtime and 1 50 mg minocyline every other day. The Benicar is a blood pressure lowering med and that is why I am on a low dose and at bed time. My blood pressure is already low so at night is better since I can sleep through the effects. Fatigue and dizziness. Then the next day a does of Minocyline. The Benicar unmasks the lyme bacteria because the longer they are in your body...the more they morph and find deeper places to hide. They also steal themselves for stress which is the antibiotic...hence why we do it every other day...to keep them off guard.
That is the antibiotic that will kill the bacteria. They will die, toxins are release...i feel crappy...next day we leave them alone...i feel good...repeat. It was amazing to me when I found out about this whole thing. It explained so much for me...it was like a light going on. Whoa...that is me....i feel like that...i do that...omg all those symptoms are mine... The good news is I can treat it. Tomorrow should be a bad day physically and if it is that will mean the protocol is working. God I hope this works. If I could have the energy to do a lot of things that I would like to do...that would be the greatest gift of all. OMG...well I am greatful for whatever I got. The Thyroid meds made a huge difference and without it 2 cats, a dog and a home wouldn't be possible. Well, I have chores and since it takes me twice as long to do them as others...i best get started.
take care...be safe...remember to take time to sleep, eat, exercise, and do something to make yourself smile.
Saturday, December 9, 2006
my intro
Hi I am Sally. and I love to write...didn't want to keep a journal growing up as it would have been too incrementing ;-)...but now I find I have to to track what I hope to be the final chapter in ridding myself of something that has plagued me all my life. Lyme's disease. But first I will say thank you to the person that turned me on to this site...thank you catidid (read kati did....i cannot spell to save my life..i am a great writer but a horrible speller so go figure)....
I am a single woman, 43 with 2 cats and a dog. I live by myself unfortunately...but I am very selective of about whom I would allow in my life and my personal space. I choose not to allow a lot of negative energy in my life. I don't have time for it. I work too hard and the time I have off is so precious I like to spend it having fun with the people I love. I have 7 nephews and 2 nieces...by age, Michael, Mackenzie, Katie, Wes, Mason, Jimmy, Max, Sean and Cole. So for those of them reading this. I promise not to tell on you if you promise not to tell on me. I do however reserve the right to take you aside and tell you if I think you might be going down a path i think is destructive for you. I empower you my children to do the same to me.
I have a 24/7 job that is very stressful....essentially i am a cross between a computer geek and a manager. I do however, love my job, my team, my users, my application but I hate the politics...enough about my job. it is not who I am. It pays the mortgage. I live in a townhouse in Maryland outside of the DC. I have lived here most my life but lived outside of Philly for 8 years (or so...my math is very sketchy so for 14 to 21). I am however, one of the few people you will meet born in Washington, D.C. A friend once told me that DC was not the real world and luckily for me I have traveled enough to know that is true. But it is my home, my family's home and has been home to lots of wonderful friends who have passed through the doors of my life.
I love my life, my family, my friends, my bad pets ;-)..and my job...now I don't always like them and I often want to run away from one or all of them at any given time...but the words I am blessed cross my lips more then once a day. I am begin a journey so I am going to blog about it. I figure that you never know what might help someone....if nothing else I will have it for me ;-).
My journey is one of possibly gaining something I haven't had much of in my life....good health. I have been diagnosed with chronic Lyme's disease. This diagnosis came recently and it was the last piece to a puzzle that I have never been able to solve. Why I feel so crappy all the time...why I am so tired all the time....why do I ....in later postings I will explain more about Lyme's as I understand it and about how I am working on killing those little bacteria in my body ;-)...I don't believe in killing or violence but in this case I will make an exception. Die bastards die ;-)...however, I am blessed to reach a place where I can actually do something about it so I will attack it like all my obstacles. I will plan and plot and do what I can to make it better. Good luck to me.
I have a deep spiritual connection to god. I don't like organized religion. I will only say that I cannot believe a god that created all this diversity in the world...would damn a group of people to hell for believing a certain way. I pray every day and thank god for my blessings. I will end my conversation on religion with hear. The bible has been interpreted by men and women but the basic essence I believe has been lost. That is to treat others as you would like to be treated. I live by 3 rules follow my gut instinct, treat others as you would like to be treated...and be greatful for what you have. I have others but those 3...they are the most important.
I love music...all music. I just got myself a video ipod and am syched to put all my cd's on it!! I love kids as the ones I listed earlier will attest to....I love bad pets ;-)...I love MTV, VH1, CBS Sunday Morning, Real World, the Challenges, Food Network. I love to bake, cook and eat ;-). However, I have learned much about nutrition over the last 10 years and my new goal is to convert my favorite recipes to healthy ones ;-). I love movies especially kids movies....computers...TIVO!!!...books....good friends, good food, good drink...I have learned to not let the small stuff ruin my precious time away from work...and I love to take vacations...I am Pollyana, Madonna, and Marianne Williamson all rolled into one. I am a liberal democrat and proud of it. And I love 80's fashion ;-) even if it is does say something about me ;-).
Thanks for stopping by and checking this out. I hope you will check back. My myspace account is LU2PMBU but I don't know how to add anyone. For a computer Geek I am a bit lame ;-).
Take Care...Be Safe...Be nice to each other
I am a single woman, 43 with 2 cats and a dog. I live by myself unfortunately...but I am very selective of about whom I would allow in my life and my personal space. I choose not to allow a lot of negative energy in my life. I don't have time for it. I work too hard and the time I have off is so precious I like to spend it having fun with the people I love. I have 7 nephews and 2 nieces...by age, Michael, Mackenzie, Katie, Wes, Mason, Jimmy, Max, Sean and Cole. So for those of them reading this. I promise not to tell on you if you promise not to tell on me. I do however reserve the right to take you aside and tell you if I think you might be going down a path i think is destructive for you. I empower you my children to do the same to me.
I have a 24/7 job that is very stressful....essentially i am a cross between a computer geek and a manager. I do however, love my job, my team, my users, my application but I hate the politics...enough about my job. it is not who I am. It pays the mortgage. I live in a townhouse in Maryland outside of the DC. I have lived here most my life but lived outside of Philly for 8 years (or so...my math is very sketchy so for 14 to 21). I am however, one of the few people you will meet born in Washington, D.C. A friend once told me that DC was not the real world and luckily for me I have traveled enough to know that is true. But it is my home, my family's home and has been home to lots of wonderful friends who have passed through the doors of my life.
I love my life, my family, my friends, my bad pets ;-)..and my job...now I don't always like them and I often want to run away from one or all of them at any given time...but the words I am blessed cross my lips more then once a day. I am begin a journey so I am going to blog about it. I figure that you never know what might help someone....if nothing else I will have it for me ;-).
My journey is one of possibly gaining something I haven't had much of in my life....good health. I have been diagnosed with chronic Lyme's disease. This diagnosis came recently and it was the last piece to a puzzle that I have never been able to solve. Why I feel so crappy all the time...why I am so tired all the time....why do I ....in later postings I will explain more about Lyme's as I understand it and about how I am working on killing those little bacteria in my body ;-)...I don't believe in killing or violence but in this case I will make an exception. Die bastards die ;-)...however, I am blessed to reach a place where I can actually do something about it so I will attack it like all my obstacles. I will plan and plot and do what I can to make it better. Good luck to me.
I have a deep spiritual connection to god. I don't like organized religion. I will only say that I cannot believe a god that created all this diversity in the world...would damn a group of people to hell for believing a certain way. I pray every day and thank god for my blessings. I will end my conversation on religion with hear. The bible has been interpreted by men and women but the basic essence I believe has been lost. That is to treat others as you would like to be treated. I live by 3 rules follow my gut instinct, treat others as you would like to be treated...and be greatful for what you have. I have others but those 3...they are the most important.
I love music...all music. I just got myself a video ipod and am syched to put all my cd's on it!! I love kids as the ones I listed earlier will attest to....I love bad pets ;-)...I love MTV, VH1, CBS Sunday Morning, Real World, the Challenges, Food Network. I love to bake, cook and eat ;-). However, I have learned much about nutrition over the last 10 years and my new goal is to convert my favorite recipes to healthy ones ;-). I love movies especially kids movies....computers...TIVO!!!...books....good friends, good food, good drink...I have learned to not let the small stuff ruin my precious time away from work...and I love to take vacations...I am Pollyana, Madonna, and Marianne Williamson all rolled into one. I am a liberal democrat and proud of it. And I love 80's fashion ;-) even if it is does say something about me ;-).
Thanks for stopping by and checking this out. I hope you will check back. My myspace account is LU2PMBU but I don't know how to add anyone. For a computer Geek I am a bit lame ;-).
Take Care...Be Safe...Be nice to each other
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